Thinking thoughts


 So this morning was one of those mornings. 

I started out early (before 7am) kids and husband still snoozing, one dog bouncing round like a muppet, the other pondering whether it was worth him getting up. 

I was only out 20 minutes but when I got home I just sat in the car on the drive. I don’t know if I was exhausted or whether something was bothering me but I just allowed my brain to scroll through all its thoughts. 

It was an interesting ten minutes. 

I scrolled back through WhatsApp messages, Facebook messages and all kinds. My mind was blown. 

See it’s true that if someone makes a decision on something without even talking to you then they already held that opinion of you. You can’t change that. But in my position you also can’t help feeling used. 

The thought train also led me to look into other things and now I know for sure that I’m confident in my choices. I made decisions that people have questioned but following a time for calm and then a period of reflection and research I know I made the right choices for me and mine. Yes we’ve lost “people” but those people don’t belong in our world. The people they considered friends will one day realise the lies they were told by people they should have been able to trust. They will see the manipulation that lead them to abandon their friends when they needed them most. Then and only then,  they can then question the people that told those lies and decided on their actions but it will be too late to go back. My babies have learnt that we don’t stick around for people who don’t support them. 

More so I’ve learnt that if people seem snake like trust young instinct. They are snake like…I mean who sends messages about people being good looking when they’re already in a committed relationship? People letting their kids get away with injuring other children? (Thankfully we’ve photos if we need them) Lying to kids about things tha never happened? Worse telling your child another child feelings are not valid…

Maybe the truth should be out there, naming and shaming people who hurt and use others…maybe, but for now ruining someone else’s reputation isn’t in my to do list. 

But lists can change…

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